Guts and Glutes

OH MY GOODNESS...

Paige and I had our first Guts and Glutes class today

IT WAS KILLER

Our instructor was super cute, and fit of course. And she pretty much kept saying (In a very peppy voice) "Ok..this is going to hurt really bad, but we can do it! Ok...1...2...3..."

It. Was. Awesome.

I just kept cracking up the entire time because it hurt so bad (I know that sounds weird, but I was pretty much laughing about how out of shape I am). It was ridiculous...BUT...although it hurt SO bad...we are DEFINITELY going back next week...it was a good kind of pain...

and tomorrow...it will be an even better kind of pain.

I'm looking forward to Thursday's Yoga class :)

Biology will be the death of me

Soooo....I pretty much have my first round of tests over and done with ... They all went well except for one...

BIOLOGY...dum dum dumm....

I may die by the time this class is over with. And Kasey informed me that "Biology will rip me apart"....CAN'T WAIT!

But other than Biology, this week was a pretty good week.

Paige and I got this Rexercise pass that lets us go to all the classes at the Rec. We're going to do 2 classes a week. Right now we're looking at Yoga and this Guts and Glutes class that is going to make us the most ripped girls on campus...haha BUT...to say the least...we are completely stoked about it!

We also have our second home game tomorrow....let's all hope and pray that the Aggies don't pull another Arkansas State on us...

I just cleaned the apartment and now I'm doing laundry...a clean apartment is a great feeling :)

Anyway...I have some reading to do....ughhh

P.S. Robbie Seay came to Breakaway this week, and one of his songs is AMAZING...it's called Song of Hope...check it out :)

It has been a struggle

Lately I have found myself feeling completely unorganized and confused about pretty much everything around me, and there is only one explanation...

I haven't been in the Word like I should.

Now that I'm on  my own I realize how right my parents, youth pastor, pastor, and mentors were when they told me that staying in the Word would keep me on track. I must have thought they were kidding because I didn't take them seriously. Fortunately I have learned. I learned the hard way, but it's better than not learning at all.

I met this amazing girl named Paige that has pretty much become my best friend in College Station. Although we just met, it feels like we've known each other forever.  What I really like about her is that she tells me straight up what she thinks, and last night she hit the nail on the head. We were talking about guys (shocker...haha) and she pretty much told me that I need to put the Lord first in everything I do in life. He needs to be in the middle of ALL  my relationships...whether it's a friendship or a dating relationship. It made me think about my life in general. I realized that I hadn't put the Lord first in ANYTHING I had done since I got here. Don't get me wrong, I've been to church and breakaway (a giant worship service on Tuesday nights), but when it boils down to it, that's pretty much all I've done. It hasn't been a day-to-day thing. 

Starting today, September 14th, I'm going to start putting the Lord first. I'm going to commit to being in the Word every day. I know it's going to be tough, and my prayer is that this isn't just talk, but it's real. 

I need my focus to be in the right place. I feel like so far my life in college has been meaningless, and it's not a good feeling. I want to have purpose. I want to make good decisions. I want to live for something. 

That's where I'm at...

The Time Has Come..

I'm finally leaving on Sunday (pretty much)...

I thought I would be completely stoked...but truthfully, there are about a million different emotions inside me.

1. I'm scared out of my mind- not just about the school part, but about finding friends, and really just being completely, 100% on my own

2. I'm so nervous- and this is mostly about classes

3. I'm excited!- I know I'm going to meet a lot of new people and have some awesome experiences

4. I'm sad- I'm leaving so many of my close friends, and I have so many good friends going to other colleges. I'm also leaving the church that I've been going to for 14 years...and I'm going to miss it A LOT.

Emotions can be lame sometimes...

My House Is Destroyed

Seriously...

We're in the process of moving everything out of our house, and the inside of our house is completely torn apart.

I'm pretty sure that I can't see the floor of my room (which is very unusual if you have ever seen how my room normally looks). I feel completely unorganized...BUT...the good news is that it will hopefully all be over in about a week :)

OH ...and I'm in the process of repainting some of my furniture for my apartment...and it looks fantastic thus far. 

:)

Well, I must be going...we are celebrating my grandparent's 50th anniversary today...

woo!

Just thoughts...

I'm SO ready for college.

I'm not necessarily ready in the sense of getting everything together, but I'm definitely mentally ready for it. 

Or at least I think I am.

ON ANOTHER NOTE:

I was listening to this song by Sanctus Real the other day on my way to work and it was exactly what I was feeling at the moment which was crazy (God is so awesome like that).

Here are the lyrics:

It's time for healing time to move on 
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time make right what has been wrong 
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me 
All I can do is surrender

(Chorus)
Whatever you're doing inside of me 
It feels like chaos somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something heavenly

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Revaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow your will
or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is you want from me
I give everything I surrender...
To... 

(Chorus)

Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to to release all my held back tears

Whatever you're doing inside of me 
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me 
Larger than life something heavenly

Whatever you're doing inside of me 
It feels like chaos but now I can see 
This something bigger than me 
Larger than life something heavenly
Something heavenly

It's time to face up
Clean this old house 
Time breathe in and let everything out

I guess this pretty much describes my entire life right now.

I feel like lately I've been reevaluating who I am and who I want to become.

I feel like God is trying to do something in my life, I'm just not sure what. 

Stress

Stress : physical, mental, or emotional strain or tension 

I. Am. Stressed.

Why?

I feel like I have a million things to do and really little time to do it. 

Like let's see...

1. VBS stuff

2. I have to call about my dumb scholarship that they haven't sent to me yet

3. Apartment shopping (which I'm actually looking forward to, I just need to find the time)

4. Register for classes (they decided to close it until July 28th for some reason...thanks)

5. Move out of our house and into my parent's apartment

BLAH BLAH BLAH

Heaven is going to be awesome...no stress, never run out of time...it's going to be glorious :)