Full Day and It's Only 10:00am

I have failed to mention thus far that I received a letter in the mail from Ford informing me that there has been a recall of all 2003 Ford Escapes for the accelerator cable. Yipee...
So..this morning I had the great pleasure of taking my car in.
After I FINALLY found the service place (the signs were not the least bit helpful) I dropped my car off. I was also informed that my inspection was 6 months overdue...oops.
Well, a "shuttle" took me back home (more like a minivan with a guy in it..and me). That was quite an adventure as well.
I got home safe and sound (which is somewhat of a miracle) and was pretty proud of myself for dealing with my car all by myself.

Around 9:00 I got a call from Kelly Services telling me that they had a "long-term" job for me (which turns out to actually be a short-term job). They want me to actually work IN their office. Well, this can get a bit confusing because I'm supposed to hear back from Rudy's today about doing a second interview, so that could become a problem if I have a full-time job with Kelly.

I just love how I completely lose hope in Kelly and then they start calling me off the wall.

BUT...at least I have options, right?

Things I'm Looking Forward To:

1. Seeing how God shapes and molds me during these next few months
2. Being completely content with His plan for my life
3. Having a more intimate relationship with my Creator
4. Strengthening my friendships with fellow believers
5. Writing a few more songs
6. Getting a consistent job
7. Spring Break
8. Senior Pictures
9. Seeing Ashley's baby in March :)
10. Hearing from A&M in April (hopefully good news!)
11. Hearing what GOD wants me to do with my life next year
12. Meeting with Barbara and Paige tomorrow night :)

I Have Come to the Realization...

Life is not about me.
I know, crazy right?
But seriously...I really need to instill that into my brain as much as possible.
One of my good friends was kind enough to bring that to my attention when I was voicing my fear of getting a drama queen as a roommate next year.
I'm actually quite thankful for his directness.
In the past few days I have really noticed how selfish I am.
Even in yesterday's post.
All I was concerned about at the moment was how my parents' move was going to impact ME.
I wasn't thinking about all the lives that will be changed because of their step of faith to help out in this church plant.

SO...
If I could get as many people as possible to tell me every day that LIFE IS NOT ABOUT ME, that would seriously be fantastic.
I need to work on being way more selfless and not being as concerned about how things will affect my life.

ANOTHER THING...
The Lord is amazing.
Yesterday I got the chance to bask in His greatness on the 360 overlook. I had the chance to just talk to Him without any distractions. I gave some things to Him that I am completely putting into His hands (college plans, relationships, etc.). It was very freeing. I'm completely determined to start walking by faith and truly believing that the Lord has complete control over everything.

I can't wait to see what is waiting ahead :)

My Cleaning Thoughts...

So, I decided to thoroughly clean my room and closet today (which was desperately needed).
I had so many old papers, binders, folders, books, and projects piled up in my closet that I really needed to do something with. I'm somewhat of a pack-rat, so I didn't want to throw it ALL away, so I just kind of shoved it onto a shelf in my closet.

ANYWAY,
As I'm cleaning my mom informs me that we're going to have to clean out all of the closets pretty soon anyway because they may be putting the house on the market...

....

I'm pretty sure my heart stopped.
They have been talking about moving for a while, but I guess hearing the words

"We may be putting our house on the market."

really put it into reality.

I've spent pretty much my ENTIRE life in this house.

I have so many memories of my friends coming over, parties I've had, and conversations that have happened.
I have memories of redoing my room over and over again until I finally loved it enough to keep it like it is until I leave.
I have memories of our old swing set that Chris and I helped my dad build when we were little.
I have memories of playing the piano with GranAnn in the living room during Christmas.
There are memories of playing Ultimate Spoons with Casey, Cord, and Joel in the kitchen and running down the hallways to get to the spoons that were on my bed (and pretty much killing ourselves in the process).
I love the memories of the summers that my friends and I would lay in the middle of our street late at night and look at the stars.
I have memories of playing "team tag" with all of my neighbors when we were younger.
We used to play kickball in the culdesac (sp?) and basketball at my neighbors' house.
There are memories of the many crazy videos that Paige and I have made in our play room.

But most of all, there are memories of my ENTIRE family being in the same house at the same time for many many years. There won't be those memories at this other house (if my parents decide to move). It won't really even be MY house. It will just be the house that I go back to visit.

I completely respect my parents for making the decision to help out with the church that my church is planting, but I'm just going to miss my house.

And I guess really when I think about it, it's kind of dumb that I'm going to miss an object that isn't even living. And they haven't even decided FOR SURE if they are going to move. It doesn't even really matter in the long run.
But I'm still going to miss it.

...that's just what I was thinking about while I was cleaning...

So Tired...

Unfortunately I stayed up 'till 2:30am every morning this weekend, so I'm INCREDIBLY tired today.
I'm turning in my application to Rudy's today, so hopefully I won't be too tired for that.
I probably should have thought about that before.

I have about an hour and a half left here at BGI and then I'm headed over to Rudy's.

We'll see what happens!

WEEKEND

This weekend was DNow at my church.
It was the first time since Thailand that I REALLY got the chance to worship the Lord with song in a setting like that.
I came to the realization that the Lord has really changed my perspective on things. When we were singing the words "shine you light and let the whole world see", the words "let the whole world see" really stuck out at me.
After being in Thailand, I no longer think of the "world" as seperate masses of people.
I see faces.
I see faces of people that God gave me the opportunity to hand a bible to.
I see the faces of people walking along the streets in Pattaya.
It's a great thing. I feel so blessed that the Lord has opened my eyes to things like this.

What I Do at Work

If you can tell me what this is, I will give you 5 bucks. I found this on Jaclyn's computer...

Isn't it Ironic...

So, isn't it ironic how the moment I give up on my temp job and any other work I may have, I get calls for jobs.
This morning I woke up expecting to do some rigorous job searching until I got a call from Jaclyn asking if I would like to work today (OF COURSE! anything to keep me from the nightmare of job hunting).
So, I'm diligently working in the BGI office when I get a call from Kelly Services (what are the odds?) telling me they have a one-day assignment for tomorrow (of course it couldn't be a long-term assignment) making phone calls and mailing stuff. So that's what I will be doing tomorrow.
I am still going to head over to Archivers after I'm done at BGI and ask if they are hiring (I'll take discounts on scrapbooking stuff any day).

Well, I must get back to working...

The Continual Job Search

Why are jobs so hard to find?

I thought my job searching was over when I was hired by a temp agency...but now I've come to find that "temp agency" means just that.
Starting tomorrow morning I get to experience the joys of job searching once more. This time in search for a "REAL" full-time job.

Here are the options I am contemplating:
-HEB (I remember as a little girl my mom telling me that HEB was for people that didn't go to college...great)
-Archivers (a scrapbooking place...AKA: heaven)
-Bank (but I'm not really into the whole dressing up for work thing)

We'll see what happens tomorrow...