God is Awesome

OH MY GOODNESS!

He has been working in my life like no other in the past 2 days.

Although it hasn't necessarily been easy, I know He's doing something.

At church yesterday the sermon spoke to me like no other.

It was seriously like "Oh hey Jessica. I'm God. I love you. You should love others. You should put what you learn into practice. Why haven't you been doing that anyway?"

Whenever I struggle with certain things I have been searching His Word, and it has helped me so much!

I still have a lot of things to work on, but He's slowly but surly changing my heart...and it's awesome :)

Starting Over

So I'm going on this fast from guys.

So far since I've started college, guys have been a huge distraction.

To be honest, I'm SO tired of it...

I'm tired of the mixed emotions. I'm tired of the confusion. I'm tired of people kicking me to the curb.

Last night someone reinforced to me that God is the only one that will NEVER let me down.

He is the only one that will be here all the time. He's the only one that won't hurt me. He's the only one that will never break my heart. He is always here.

I'm tired of pursuing things that I know will never work out and that are completely meaningless. I'm tired of being "friends" with people that are just going to ditch me when someone better comes along.

College has been a learning experience for sure, but not in the area of academics (unfortunately). I have learned so much just from being here for a month and a half. 

Here is a list of some life lessons:

1. Most guys want the same thing....to be physical...christian or nonchristian...they want the same thing

2. No one will satisfy....I have felt so empty on the inside, and I know why...because NO ONE will satisfy like Christ

3. Hitting rock bottom sucks

4. God has someone amazing picked out for me, I just have to wait for him...but it's going to be worth it in the end

5. Just being friends is an amazing thing...that is if you are both cool with just being friends

6. Girl friends are a necessity

7. It's ok to bawl your eyes out every once in a while

8. The empty feeling in your stomach means that something is definitely not right

9. College is stinkin hard

10. Being in the Word is crucial

There are more, but I figured 10 was a good number to end on...

It's going to be a crazy journey...

Guts and Glutes

OH MY GOODNESS...

Paige and I had our first Guts and Glutes class today

IT WAS KILLER

Our instructor was super cute, and fit of course. And she pretty much kept saying (In a very peppy voice) "Ok..this is going to hurt really bad, but we can do it! Ok...1...2...3..."

It. Was. Awesome.

I just kept cracking up the entire time because it hurt so bad (I know that sounds weird, but I was pretty much laughing about how out of shape I am). It was ridiculous...BUT...although it hurt SO bad...we are DEFINITELY going back next week...it was a good kind of pain...

and tomorrow...it will be an even better kind of pain.

I'm looking forward to Thursday's Yoga class :)

Biology will be the death of me

Soooo....I pretty much have my first round of tests over and done with ... They all went well except for one...

BIOLOGY...dum dum dumm....

I may die by the time this class is over with. And Kasey informed me that "Biology will rip me apart"....CAN'T WAIT!

But other than Biology, this week was a pretty good week.

Paige and I got this Rexercise pass that lets us go to all the classes at the Rec. We're going to do 2 classes a week. Right now we're looking at Yoga and this Guts and Glutes class that is going to make us the most ripped girls on campus...haha BUT...to say the least...we are completely stoked about it!

We also have our second home game tomorrow....let's all hope and pray that the Aggies don't pull another Arkansas State on us...

I just cleaned the apartment and now I'm doing laundry...a clean apartment is a great feeling :)

Anyway...I have some reading to do....ughhh

P.S. Robbie Seay came to Breakaway this week, and one of his songs is AMAZING...it's called Song of Hope...check it out :)

It has been a struggle

Lately I have found myself feeling completely unorganized and confused about pretty much everything around me, and there is only one explanation...

I haven't been in the Word like I should.

Now that I'm on  my own I realize how right my parents, youth pastor, pastor, and mentors were when they told me that staying in the Word would keep me on track. I must have thought they were kidding because I didn't take them seriously. Fortunately I have learned. I learned the hard way, but it's better than not learning at all.

I met this amazing girl named Paige that has pretty much become my best friend in College Station. Although we just met, it feels like we've known each other forever.  What I really like about her is that she tells me straight up what she thinks, and last night she hit the nail on the head. We were talking about guys (shocker...haha) and she pretty much told me that I need to put the Lord first in everything I do in life. He needs to be in the middle of ALL  my relationships...whether it's a friendship or a dating relationship. It made me think about my life in general. I realized that I hadn't put the Lord first in ANYTHING I had done since I got here. Don't get me wrong, I've been to church and breakaway (a giant worship service on Tuesday nights), but when it boils down to it, that's pretty much all I've done. It hasn't been a day-to-day thing. 

Starting today, September 14th, I'm going to start putting the Lord first. I'm going to commit to being in the Word every day. I know it's going to be tough, and my prayer is that this isn't just talk, but it's real. 

I need my focus to be in the right place. I feel like so far my life in college has been meaningless, and it's not a good feeling. I want to have purpose. I want to make good decisions. I want to live for something. 

That's where I'm at...

The Time Has Come..

I'm finally leaving on Sunday (pretty much)...

I thought I would be completely stoked...but truthfully, there are about a million different emotions inside me.

1. I'm scared out of my mind- not just about the school part, but about finding friends, and really just being completely, 100% on my own

2. I'm so nervous- and this is mostly about classes

3. I'm excited!- I know I'm going to meet a lot of new people and have some awesome experiences

4. I'm sad- I'm leaving so many of my close friends, and I have so many good friends going to other colleges. I'm also leaving the church that I've been going to for 14 years...and I'm going to miss it A LOT.

Emotions can be lame sometimes...

My House Is Destroyed

Seriously...

We're in the process of moving everything out of our house, and the inside of our house is completely torn apart.

I'm pretty sure that I can't see the floor of my room (which is very unusual if you have ever seen how my room normally looks). I feel completely unorganized...BUT...the good news is that it will hopefully all be over in about a week :)

OH ...and I'm in the process of repainting some of my furniture for my apartment...and it looks fantastic thus far. 

:)

Well, I must be going...we are celebrating my grandparent's 50th anniversary today...

woo!