Starting Over

So I'm going on this fast from guys.

So far since I've started college, guys have been a huge distraction.

To be honest, I'm SO tired of it...

I'm tired of the mixed emotions. I'm tired of the confusion. I'm tired of people kicking me to the curb.

Last night someone reinforced to me that God is the only one that will NEVER let me down.

He is the only one that will be here all the time. He's the only one that won't hurt me. He's the only one that will never break my heart. He is always here.

I'm tired of pursuing things that I know will never work out and that are completely meaningless. I'm tired of being "friends" with people that are just going to ditch me when someone better comes along.

College has been a learning experience for sure, but not in the area of academics (unfortunately). I have learned so much just from being here for a month and a half. 

Here is a list of some life lessons:

1. Most guys want the same thing....to be physical...christian or nonchristian...they want the same thing

2. No one will satisfy....I have felt so empty on the inside, and I know why...because NO ONE will satisfy like Christ

3. Hitting rock bottom sucks

4. God has someone amazing picked out for me, I just have to wait for him...but it's going to be worth it in the end

5. Just being friends is an amazing thing...that is if you are both cool with just being friends

6. Girl friends are a necessity

7. It's ok to bawl your eyes out every once in a while

8. The empty feeling in your stomach means that something is definitely not right

9. College is stinkin hard

10. Being in the Word is crucial

There are more, but I figured 10 was a good number to end on...

It's going to be a crazy journey...